Monday, April 29, 2013


I believe that right now, in this moment, I am doing what I am supposed to do, what God has called me to do. I love on women who need help with the Care Pregnancy Center of the Eastern Panhandle. It doesn't look the way I thought it would look. I am a counselor but I have not had any official women to counsel. I love on the women and men that come in and need help.

I sing on the Worship Team. I can't not sing. I would not have my joy if I didn't sing. I sometimes feel like I am being selfish singing up there but I know that I am not up there to perform. I am up there to worship God. To be His cheerleader. To help others worship Him.

 My husband and I reach out to help couples. We have done some counseling both marital & pre-marital but mostly we point them to Family Life's Weekend To Remember or The Art of Marriage DVD Event. Sometimes I feel that we don't have an impact but even the smallest something to point them towards God is all that it takes. We shine our lights in a way that God calls us to. 

Our big dream is to own a B&B. One that reaches the believers that need respite. To nourish people not just physically through food and rest and relaxation but also spiritually through listening, praying, encouraging and pointing them to God's Scripture. Recently, Jay voiced that it may even be a retreat center. We have talked about a campground...maybe it will be all those three combined! That would be awesome! I don't know when this will be or where this will be and obviously we don't know exactly what but that is our dream.

My good friend pointed out that we already have a B&B but it doesn't look like we thought it would. We like to open our home to people who need it. People that we feel lead to envelop into our family for a time. I am excited to meet the next person who will be with us for the summer. I hope that we can show God's love to her. It is a blessing to be where you are supposed to but don't overlook where you are thinking that you aren't there. I know our dream is being realized. I know that when the girls leave the nest it will grow bigger. I know that I shouldn't belittle what we are doing now. I know I can't wait for it to be bigger. I pray that I keep my eyes and mind opened to what it will be, to what God shapes it to be. 

Monday, April 8, 2013

Life is Busy

Okay, so I am not blogging very much. Life is very hectic. I feel guilty sometimes just sitting down at the computer so I have not taken the time to write. My Mamaw passed away the other day. She was 93. It is sad because I really did not know her. All I remember of her was her drinking and her apartment was very nasty. My mom and her two sisters sat down with Mamaw about 25 years ago and confronted her. They had to tell her that she needed to choose a relationship with them or alcohol. She chose the latter. Eventually she stopped drinking. Not because of wanting to but because she had "pickled" her brain and had alcohol induced dementia. I am glad that my cousin Sharon watched over her care in the last years. Makes we wonder about the choices I make. I pray that all my choices are covered in prayer and Spirit led. I know that won't always be the case because I am on this side of heaven. I can make some pretty stupid choices and I have reaped the consequences. All I can do is ask for forgiveness and look up toward God and ask Him to lead me again.